This typing box somehow brings back memories, and I remember typing into something similar 12 years ago.. GOSH.. have I aged that quicly.. time flies..
Why I started this blog I am not sure, and how long this will last I am not sure either, or will it find its fate in the dust after this post, I don't know too! So let it pray for its own survival..
Its almost the end of a year as a trainee, and I really do not know what has brought me so far down this path. I remember starting this journey feeling really pumped and telling myself no matter how hard it can be, I will be able to pull through due to my nature of not giving up or pushing even more when the going gets tough. I find myself in the past able to push more when people actually say its going to tough, maybe coz i want to prove them wrong or just to challenge myself.
But this year has just been, over the top. Feeling like a cup that has been poured water into and has overflowed for a very very long time. There used to be time the years before to take a breather and catch my breath before I press the 'restart' button again to begin the challenge. This year, there has been no restart button to press, or rather, there is no time to even search for the button. In and out there are just things to think about, consider, decide, speak, do, act..... until I am just in a 'whatever' mode.
Nevertheless, I have learnt a lot this year as well, got smacked in the face for many things I did not think about, or realize it could be done that way, definitely a part of growing up. See myself making the effort to enjoy life rather than filling it up, or maybe because it is too full to be filled up with anything else I want to do. oh well. not making much sense here.
Save more ranting for another day as I really should hit the books hard before the dust gets the better of my nose.
